I was sick for three days, better now. I hope all of you are well, no worries it was not the flu, only a self inflicted manifestation of stress. As you all know, I have been looking for a job for a long time now. I found one, I will be working at a for- profit child care center, it will be different from non- profit but at least I am working. I start on Monday which will new as well, because I will be taking the bus.
I decided to take the bus- one because I have to, my tags are expired and I need to repair my car, secondly I have a lot of homework to do and I will be able to get my homework done on the way into work everyday. Also I just need time to think and not worry about traffic. So for the first two months I will be busing it until I get my car fixed, then I will see, if it works out, how I want to handle taking the bus once it is not a necessity but a choice. That is the one thing I have learned for all of this, I need choices.
When I left my teaching job I did so when the economy was failing and it took two weeks to find a job. I really wanted to try something different. Teaching was never my goal in life but I am good at it and I love watching children learn. So for almost twenty years I have worked primarily in Early Childhood Education. I have been an advocate for teachers most of that time. But after working as a 1-3 grade teacher and not being qualified,(I have a BA but not a teaching certification). I needed a break and wanted to work on pursuing my art. In comes the record store.
The record store that I worked at is rare and I loved it, but I was at a different phase in my life, just did not see yet. The God and Goddess tend to give me any opportunity I want and it is me who walks away or walks forward with it. After six months and twenty pounds of weight loss I could not survive on minimum wage. Also there was a huge integrity issue happening at the store, which I could not stomach, so I gave my notice.
It was a huge leap of faith, or just stupid but I quit not having another job. I had to put my health first. It has taken thirty days to find a new job. I have learned in the process that... ( list time)
1. I want to work on my faith, it is not as strong as I thought.
2. I have to work at a job, but find my passion through my art.
3. I am definitely going through a midlife crisis, and it is called that for a reason
4. Four years without a relationship is too long, it is making me strange:)
5. Integrity means nothing if you are homeless. ( i am not homeless, just close to it)
So I am back and will be beginning this next phase. It's funny to wake up one day and know that your life, (my life) has been my own creation and I have chosen really odd colors to paint it with. Where the hell is purple when you need it!
Blessed Be,
HWD
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
New Movies/ Finding my space
So sorry i have not been online I have had sever issues lately. Anyway, I have had many things happening in my life. The life coach program is very interesting and I am gaining a lot of insight about myself. The house cleaning before Imbolic is going well, a few days behind but I am forgiving myself because finding a job has become a strong priority right now.
I watched a old new movie last night and really liked it. Before I say the movie I just want to say that I am learning so much about how closed and judgemental I am with regards to how I have been closed to new things. Movies may seem like a strange way to shift my lack of openness to new experiences but it works. I am learning that there is a lot of enjoyment out there! Nice! So on with the movie!
Be Kind Rewind! Loved it. I cried at the end. So much for thinking I know everything.
I want to say thanks to all of you who continue to check me out and for new folks signing on.
I watched a old new movie last night and really liked it. Before I say the movie I just want to say that I am learning so much about how closed and judgemental I am with regards to how I have been closed to new things. Movies may seem like a strange way to shift my lack of openness to new experiences but it works. I am learning that there is a lot of enjoyment out there! Nice! So on with the movie!
Be Kind Rewind! Loved it. I cried at the end. So much for thinking I know everything.
I want to say thanks to all of you who continue to check me out and for new folks signing on.
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