If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

This is just something I need to remind myself everyday!

Saturday, December 26, 2009

I am getting ready to clean my kitchen. This is the one area of my house that leads to a lot of stress for me. I don't want to clean it at all this why I am posting it. I do so much comparison with myself and others with regard to house work. and I always come up on the short end of the "better than" stick. I know what I have to do to move myself out of this funk. I have a new vinyl, Silver sun Pickups: Swoon and I will play that as I clean. The living room needs cleaning again. I wish house work was like a long term project with some type of end but it is not and I have to keep moving or my goals will never be reached.

Today I also have to finish my course study of lesson three for my 2nd degree. We are reading, Magickal Connections by: Lisa Mc Sherry. This book is a must read in my personal option for anyone in a coven or thinking of starting one.

Friday, December 25, 2009

The Princess and The Frog

This morning I woke up ready to go see Avatar. I saw the previews and was blown away, but as I scrolled down the last listing of movies was The Princess And The Frog. One of my coven sisters told me it was coming out and I thought why not, it's not everyday a African/American gets to be a princess. Was I surprised!

Growing up I was taught and told that men where no good and only whites could have it all. To my birth families surprise I was later adopted by a white family, but by then my belief systems about my beauty and goals where set. I never understood the importance of fairy tales and how they could relate to my life. Of course with my birth family I read extensively books on, empowerment and fighting the "cause" but never was I allowed to see myself as someone who deserved love just for loves sake. As I grew up, I had my secret shame of "chick flicks" but in contrast,I never realized that they where just grown up versions of the archetype of the young princess, the maiden aspect of the triple goddess.

I cried from start to end and I felt so many things. First being pragmatic, I thought Walt Disney productions did an honest job of telling the truth of race in our country with regards to privilege and social class. Secondly, the story was unique and fun. However, the most important thing that I felt was a sigh of relief that, yes I can be a Princess and that love is possible even if you have nappy hair:)

It may seem like a lot to lay on a movie, but at my age to get the lesson that fantasy is as important as reality was worth it. So as I go about my day I will think and ponder about women my age regardless of race who where never taught or told that they were a princess and wish them as well as myself -faith. I firmly believe with out that aspect of the maiden we will be stumped somehow in our growth. And to tell the truth I am exhausted always running from the thought or even the notion of someone being there for me.

I wish everyone a wonderful holiday, I don't celebrate Christmas, but if you do I hope it is blessed and that you are honoring the maiden part of yourself because she is a Princess.

blessed be,
HWD

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Reflection

Okay, the title of this Blog is reflection, but as I sit here only two hours without a job I relize that I might be premature in the title as well as what have I learned. I am very eager to see how all of this plays out. I am at a loss to put into words how low I felt most days going into a store that as a costumer was a place of solice for me.

Off the bat, I know nothing about music history only what I recall from my years playing the Cello. So classical was my strong suit and even that was limited. But I do know the easiest way to break someone down is to tease them for what they do not know, maybe that is the teacher in me but I feel very lost in my power as far as music goes. I see now that knowing music and understanding how to inspire others to appreciate it are two very different things. I will be writing more later. Must go, just wanted to say I am done. But learned a lot.

HWD

Monday, December 21, 2009

Happy Yule

I am learning so much! For now Happy yule!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Happy Yule

Last night well into this early morning I spent time with my coven for Yule. It was amazing. We are a very rare group,I feel anyway. I feel so blessed to spend time with these people. It was a very powerful ritual and I had a personal moment in circle. We needed tapers for the energy work we did and our 1st maiden asked me if I had any,all i had where Shabbat candles that I now use for spell work. I took them with me. girl oh girl was I surprised at the emotions seeing my coven members holding lit candles petitioning for peace. I sobbed like a baby. It was the most spiritual moment i have had in a long time.
I wish you all a peaceful a glorious Yule!